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'having an off night'
no, it’s an off existence. but you’re right. i should just go to sleep. ignore it. i’m a problem. i’m always a problem. an annoyance to you even though you give me nice smiles and kind words. i’m an annoyance to everyone. i don’t know why i am so paranoid, so fragile, so messed up.
i know i can’t play with some of my favorite people because i’m so fucking bad at the game and he says to me i go off and play on my own but that’s because i feel bad playing around them. i feel like a piece of shit. i don’t know why i do. i hate this. i fucking hate me, every inch and bit of me, down to the failures in school to the filth i live in to how i have to pretend to be outgoing and social for eight hours a day.
he says he wants to help me but i feel like he isn’t helping me at all. but i don’t expect him to put down the fun he’s having to take care of me. i don’t know why i FUCKING RELY ON PEOPLE, BECAUSE NO ONE IS EVER GOING TO WANT TO HELP ME.
i hate that achy feeling inside that i just want to let out in some way. like shove my hand in a vat of ice or burn myself in the shower.
i hate me.
also what do i have to do to get my icons to show up without the polaroid looking shit
oh yea i saw frozen